Yesterday, Lily paused dramatically while Mike was putting on her pajamas, grabbed her chest and announced: “I HAVE to PUMP!” Apparently I’ve been hooking myself up to the milking machine too much in front of her, as she is now emulating my phrases like a pro. Mike was cracking up over that comment. I’ve also found, speaking of the pump, that I have to really check it out first before attaching myself to it. It has two settings on it - one for speed and one for the amount of suction. One is a twist knob and the other is a slide lever. Lily LOVES to play with those two settings. Today I was at work and began to pump only scream out in pain - it felt like my eyes were being sucked out through my nipples. Turns out the setting for suction had been turned to “MAX” which would be enough to milk an elephant, and the speed had been set to 10 when it’s normally at 4. The pump sounded like a freight train about to derail and take my poor dairy farm with it.
Everyone keeps asking me how long I’m going to nurse. I don’t know. I try not to think about it. Nursing is keeping me from getting a breast reduction - and when I am asked in my networking group what my burning passion is, I always get the urge to tell them my burning passion is to be a 32A. So far I have resisted. The sooner I am done nursing, the sooner I can begin the long petitioning process with the insurance company. However, I managed nearly 10 months with Lily and I can see the benefits of it . . . not to mention nursing can burn up to 500 calories a day and we all know I need all the caloric burns I can get. So the answer still is, I don’t know. In the meantime I continue to pump on the days Arden is in day care (after checking the pump for Lily alterations) and dream of the day when I can go jogging without pain.
Lily’s doing really well in day care - it’s made my work much easier because I’m not spending the entire day thinking about her crying her eyes out in a corner. The guilt that first week was truly overwhelming. I’m glad we are on the upswing. We are still not sleeping much - Arden wakes up every 3 hours for some reason at night these days. I keep hoping tomorrow will be different. I know this is only temporary and at some point in our lives, we will sleep through the night again.
Today I had a totally non-productive day at work. My computer was infected with 5 (count ‘em, 5) different Trojan Horse viruses that took literally 6 hours to fix, clean and eradicate. It screwed up everything on my computer. I felt like suing Norton Antivirus. I am fanatical about virus and worm protection and I still got hit. Just goes to show you we’re not safe at all. I can’t believe idiots spend time programming these things just to make the rest of us spend our days fixing them. Get a job, you dumb hackers!!!
